Through The Cryptic I Find Calm

"Does everyone come here because they wanted too or because it's their destiny?," she asked. I shrugged. I'm here coz I follow the bread crumbs and I reached the stars before I even know what are those twinkling delights in the sky.

Remember the bread crumbs. Remember the destiny. Remember the signs.

"I am the queen of puzzles.
Through disorder I find order.
Through the cryptic I find calm.
Through the echo
I hear the most eloquent tune."
— Jayne Fenton Keane


Happy Halloween, Potty Heads!

I don't celebrate Halloween.

But I'm already a stinky, smelly, rotten, messy young zombie. With a designer sunglass. Who twitter a lot.

So while you folks sit there and gawk, I'm going to munch on leftover brains for supper.

Later days/nights!

Photo edited in:


A Dear Diary Moment: Just Another One of Those Girlie Moments

We were slightly disappointed that KK, Sabah holds no appeal to us anymore coz we decided we're MAD OVER HEELS IN LOVE SHOPPING IN SINGAPORE INSTEAD! (squuuuueeeeee!)

It took me 3 Singapore trips this year to realized this. Slow. Yes. Yes. I know.

Thanks, KK. We had some great times together but it's time for me to move on to a better, much to my kind of current taste and style in Singapore. 

P/s If you're a Zara lover, here's a friendly shopping tip: MUST. SHOP. IN. SINGAPORE's. ZARA!!! It's 10x AWESOME! (squuuueeeeee!) 

P/s/s I STILL do not like F21. Even those in Singapore. FTL. I'm hoping F21 in the U.S will change my mind. 


See ya in bit, Chocolate Macaroons!

The Mister: I banked in some pocket money for you to enjoy in Singapore. Go nuts, Love.

Me: Your wish is my command. AIIIIIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAIYAI! (Red Indian’s battle cry)


Itching to Get On With It

Happiness and silhouettes
Revolving in the deep water indigo
It's high tide, night sky
Pleasure moment
Thinking big
Thinking positive
And itching to get on with it
It's all stops out
~Imogen Heaps


The happiness that I feel when I’m with him is unlike any happiness I have ever experienced

I can never understand how the Mister can put up with my insane prattles, mood swings, out of this world impulsive nature and sudden scream at everything cute. I must have done something good in my life before to deserve this good fortune. Or I need to stop my sugar intake.


Everything's Going To Be Okay

"A bird that has lost it's feathers can no longer sail through the sky's. 
And a person who has lost her memories can no longer find her way through the world she once called home. 
But still, I keep my faith. But as long as I have my life, 
new memories will be carved into the sand of time." 


Letting Go is Not That Difficult

So, yeah. About the photo above. My face. Yeah. Erm. Well. I looked like an anus there so... Erm... I photoshop a random model/actress photo on it instead. Much better doncha think? It’s much better than looking at a buttface. Buttface! *Rolling on the floor with fits of nasty giggles* BUTTFACE! Get it? Get it? Bah, humbug.

As you well know, I’ve a truck load of books at home. Then one day I decided to sell em off. I told some of my fellow bookworm friends of my decision and man, the horror on their face was as if I was swinging a bloody sledgehammer around infants or something.

Of course I loved and treasured my books. I wouldn’t have kept it since I was 10 but it’s time to let go.

I sold my books at a ridiculously cheap price. Even those that I just bought and read like a month or two before, I sold it at RM5 each. If you scoff at the price, you know nothing of charitable heart, my dear. It was not my intention to make profits. My intention was to create an opportunity for people to purchase affordable books to read and hopefully, it’ll make other bookworms out there happy. It’s time that my books transport them instead to the land of romance and fantasy and made their day.

60% of my books were sold off that day including all my Archie comics.

I made quite a hefty sum of money from the sale and I donated it all to Piasau Animal Welfare Support (PAWS). It’s a non-government organization that shelter abandons animals in Miri.

I now have a big space at home to fill my new books in! *happy bunny dance*

"You have not lived today until you have done something for someone who can never repay you" ~John Bunyan

Melissa said we both looked like some foreign maids at Malaysia's border looking for our passports. Good one Mel! *highfive*

(Photos by MedianLabs)

P/s if you want to make donation to PAWS, check out their Facebook page: PAWS MIRI for further information


Merinsak Kata Orang Sarawak Eh

- I have my Internet back! (sobbing happy snots down the keyboard)

- I think butt jokes are funny but out of 10, maybe only one or two would laugh when I excitedly tell the joke. By laughing, I mean hesitant nervous laughter with wary eyes looking for escape route.

- I’m currently obsessed with Criminal Minds the TV series. I’m so obsessed that I’ve been caught "profiling" everyone around me including my mom’s cats.

- I’m getting married in the next... what? 11 weeks? And the knowledge that I’m going to be the Mister’s wife hasn’t sunk in yet. Most probably will only sink in when we hold our first grandchild or when zombie apocalypse reign upon us (which most probably will happen in the next century so if you’re alive then, good luck)

- This October gotta be the shortest month EVER! Every time I look at the calendar, I slapped my forehead thinking its still July. Or April. April please? April! April! April! (My birthday month you dork!)

- No matter what, I can never bring myself to watch Inception. I know, (and this is a well known fact), I will just end up staring at the screen wondering what ice-cream flavor I should get later. You see folks, I can watch romantic comedies and I can watch NCIS, CSI, Criminal Minds, Lie To Me and understand what goes on but to watch something deeper than that, that requires one to think and penetrate deeper into your cerebral cortex, well, let’s just say, in a nicer term, I’ve a simple mind. There. Simple. Not an idiot. Just simple.

- I hate the fact that I’ve to shed a few kilos just so I can look good in my wedding dress. That’ll teach me to scoff at those whom I used to poke fun at for dieting months before their wedding. Meh.

- Another blog I diligently follow has been shut down (screaming bloody murder). But this one is slightly different. It was shut down due to goody-goody Netizen’s complains. Bah. Humbug. No freedom of speech whatsoever. Hmph.

- I’m going to Singapore for the third time this year this weekend. Booyah!

- I want to go to Beijing so badly, it’s insane!

- I love my Twitter friends. These faceless people are my constant dose of inspiration, love and laughter (disregard the fact that we abuse the use of Twitter and Foursquare by over using it and "chatting" instead of "twittering")

- Feeling blessed and deliriously happy that something GREAT and BIG is happening soon! (^.^)

So how are things with you?


What Happened?

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Depression and I

Me is a Bum Bum

The Internet at home decided to go AWOL on me and being an Internet junkie, 7 straight fucking days without it was an endless torturous spiral zone.

But the good thing about it is that I get to catch up on my reading. And house cleaning. And toilet scrubbing. And cooking. And life. And stuff like that.

A willy-wonka moment. Love me.

Last Wednesday and Thursday, I attended attend a pre-nuptial course (this suppose to be in a post of its own ~Wedding Drama Part XXX but I'm too brooding to care and since I'm blogging through iPhone now, I tell you one thing, it is such a pain in the anus. Blogging via iPhone I mean. Whatev)

Camwhoring with a "tudung" Muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaburp...

Can't remember when was the last time I cook something aside from porridge and instant noodle so last Saturday, I decided to make myself comfort food and stuff my face with it. I made pasta. Tada! (I know. I know. The photo sucks. But it taste so nice I ended up licking up the whole kitchen with my tongue)

Oh. Meet Ah Meng. He's a new family member in my Mom's household. My sister saved him from a drain, soaking wet and dirty on the first day of Hari Raya (imagine a young girl in baju kurung jumped in a drain just to save a kitten. yes. yes. it was hilarious as hell)

My sister gave him a name that sounded like ... Gustav? I can't remember. Then my brother changed it to Syawal (coz he was found on the first day of Syawal. Get it? Get it? Neither do I). Then when my brother's friend dropped by the house and saw the little midget playing with Phoebe, he said, "From now on his name is Ah Meng". I have no friggin idea how and why and who the hell gave him the permission to change the kitten's name but it stuck until now.

So folks, meet Ah Meng.

All photos taken by iPhone, shaky hand and no flash and all.

Later days

Remember the strength.
Remember the support.
Remember the surprising calmness; knowing that it’s never going to be a regret.
Remember the mischievous smile; a smile that tells a secret joke that only you know.
Remember the freedom; as you inhale your first breath.
Remember the knowledge; that something great is coming your way.
Remember the excitement; a greater, better, bigger things in life.
Remember the power you hold; a wholesome, selfless heart.
Remember to be proud and happy coz, as you sow, so shall you reap. So yes, life will reward your selfless deed.
Remember who the real winner is; it is you.


Hey You. Yes, You. Read This.

"You can't judge anyone for what they've done. Because people change" ~Leighton Meester


Portrait of One

"She followed the stars and wanted to follow the sun too and in her dreams, she listened closely for the beginning of all things, for that was where she knew she'd find the stars and sun at the same time" ~Balqiz

Just when I was almost despair of the fact that I will never have the chance to shoot anything interesting to try out my new Macro lens (Woot! Woot! Thanks to the Mister for getting me one!) Nurul found me a very, very interesting specimen!


Only after a while that I realized the crab actually has been dead for quite sometime.... (-_____________-)

No wonder the eyes were white and vacant... (-_______________-)

And I fell and scratched my arm badly during the photoshoot. I was just too absorbed in doing what I was doing that I didn't see where I was sitting (near a big hole between two rocks) I now am a proud owner of a huge gash of wound on my elbow. My first accident in 2 years. Awesome.


Do you hear my words when I’m whispering to you before sleep each night? ~Tyler Knott

Cause everywhere I seem to be
I am only passing through
I dream these days about the sea
Always wake up feeling blue
Wishing I could dream of you
So if I stumble
And if I fall
And if I slit now
And loose it all
And if I can’t be all that I could be
Will you, will you wait for me ~ Alexi Murdoch

You have no idea the aching inside my heart when I can’t see you ~Tyler Knott

Every inch of you every beautiful detail is perfect to me ~Tyler Knott

You alter the beat,
the pulse, the sound and fury
of my lonely heart ~Tyler Knott


Dear Me, Life is Silly

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost

Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

Photos by Suhai and Nurul


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