There's Something About Naila

I actually have tons of things to blog about. But I just couldn’t bring myself to sit and write more than 140 words. Writing in social media is getting miniscule by the day that penning thoughts in long sentences become too tedious. I do not know how writers can do it. I guess I got suck into this miniscule blog so much so that I lost the desire to write a whole page of my thoughts.

Well today I decided to break the habit and pen some stories about my kids. What? You expect me to write something more politically challenge? Please. You got the wrong blog, man.

Before I start, I just want to warn you early that I’m a bit high on medication right now. Yes, I still have to take my nerve pain meds due to my chronic carpal tunnel syndrome. And the meds are making me super relax and high. Sometimes I would burst out laughing for no apparent reason. Yes. Awesome right?

Anyway, I do feel guilty for not writing more about Naila. In this blog, I wrote everything about Kaisan. From his birth to his first tooth and so on. Ahh the curse of being a second born…

But Naila is so unlike Kaisan. I should really write more about this girl. She’s so unique, funny, smart and damn opinionated. And I say that with pride.

She loves being the center of attention that she would shove her brother aside so she can bask in the glory of people’s admiration.

If Kaisan can sing, she can sing better. She would spontaneously burst into high pitch song with lyrics that she made up herself just so she can show she can sing too. Most of the time it’s just gibberish.

If Kaisan gets into trouble for doing something naughty, she would strut oh so confidently and announce to whoever listening that “Abang is very naughty and I’m very good. I didn’t do what he did because what he did was wrong” I know. Super annoying git, right?

If Kaisan have homework from school, she would cry that she doesn’t. I would secretly take Kaisan’s old exercise book and tell her “Naila, you must have drop your homework in Abang’s bag. Here’s your book” and she would happily sit next to her brother to do her homework.

If Kaisan were being taught by me to read, she would demand that she’s being taught too. And she learned very fast. She already know the word “BALL”, “ALL”, “CAT”, “DOG”, “BIG” and “CAN”

But however competitive she is, her brother is always her hero, her best friend, her playmate, her rival and enemy all at the same time.

When she woke up from her nap, the first person she would ask is her brother. “Where’s Abang? Is he playing outside? Can I play with Abang?”

When she’s been given a treat, she would run looking for her brother to share her loot. And she’s not stingy with her food.

Oh how she loves food! Whenever we attend a party or a gathering with food around, she would sit quietly by herself eating and enjoying her dish. She would be so oblivious with the kids around her playing coz her food is much, much more important than kids running around.

I always find this super cute. No, she’s not anti social. She does mix around with kids and able to interact but unlike Kaisan, the super friendly boy, Naila is quite reserve and selective. She prefers babies or older people like people my age. Hahaha! The reason is that she likes to talk and she knows only people my age would interact with her properly.

In school, she calls her teacher by their name instead of calling them teacher. I suspect this girl doesn’t know her own age…

With babies, she always been fascinated with babies that often she would come up to me and ask for a “little sister”. Nope! This baby factory is close, young lady!

Oh there are so many things I want to write about Naila but I’m almost dead on my butt now. It’s nearing midnight and I’m going to continue soon.


What's Next?

Last year, when I said goodbye to my job, I admit that there was a big part of me that was scared silly. The idea of leaving a stable job without another job waiting was so terrifying that I faced few anxieties attack.

But knowing me, the fear lasted for a day or two and after that I started to feel excited. I can’t deny that there’s an exhilarating feeling of I’m now free to do ANYTHING I want to do! I can be ANYTHING I want to be!

I toyed with the idea of working again and there are few options I have put some thoughts to it. Some ideas are big. Some are small.

I can study again. Probably take engineering? Medical? Pilot? Don’t laugh. Anything is possible even when it sounds so ludicrous. Or something as mundane as being cashier at a supermarket or a parking ticket attendance? I always wonder how it feels to be a cashier dealing with many types of people everyday and doing only one task only –repetitively.

The thing is, I love trying out new ideas. I’m born with an unsettled soul that craves for adventure and addicted new things. I get excited knowing this time I don’t have restriction to try and be whatever I want.

However, the downside of me being me is that I get bored easily. That is why 10 years in Shell, I moved department and have 4 roles.  Once I master something, I get the itch to move on to another project.

I started sewing last year. I played with the idea for 2 years and finally took the plunged last year. I didn’t go to any sewing class but relied heavily on Youtube videos and Pinterest. I even made some money selling my work. Then I got bored.

I started Kaisan’s ice-cream business. I made a lot of research and experiments on what flavor to make. His business soared but I got bored and lazy to make some more. To this date, he still talks about how he enjoyed having his own business. Alas his mom is no longer interested to pour her energy and sweat in it anymore.

And so many more.

But there are some of interests that I started years ago and lasted until now. Everyone who knows me knows I love reading. I started that when I was just a kid and as to date, I still read and although I read many kind of genre, I still go back to my historical romance novels for comfort reading.

4 years ago I was introduced to stock market. I fell in love and despite many losses made, the hardship I faced to learn and study the market and all, I am still here and enjoying it.

So… what’s next, me? Throughout my 36 years of life, I’ve done:

1.     Waitressing (Lasted only a day!)
2.     Salesgirl at a cd and cassette shop (lasted only a day!)
3.     Dentist assistant (lasted only a week!)
4.     Receptionist (Lasted only a week!)
5.     School canteen helper (Lasted only a month)
6.     Administrator (3 months)
7.     Clerk (Lasted for half a year)
8.     Telemarketing (Lasted for a year)
9.     Tuition teacher (Lasted for a year)
1.     Temporary teacher (Lasted for 3 months)
1.     Account clerk (3 years)
1.   Secretary (2 years)
1.    Quality Coordinator (3 years)
1.    Materials Buyer (1 year)

All sounds so boring. Except Quality Coordinator job. I actually enjoyed it immensely despite my frustration with the people I worked with and my lack of knowledge in the area. I put a lot of my time and effort to learn the role and gained knowledge from it but I was so hard on myself. I had two role models who walk and talk technical knowledge and I badly wanted to like them. Only when I left the role that I realized I actually know a lot more than I thought. Oh well. Water under the bridge.

I digress. Sorry. That’s how my mind wanders all the time.

As usual, I don’t know how to end this post. So I’ll just stop here.

Till then, ciao.

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