Couldn't have put it better myself...

"I've come to learn that you can only write honestly with time. For those who feel like I've lost a lot of the edge to my writing, it's because I've exhausted all the topics I can write honestly about. What can I write about today? The problem with writing a personal journal for a public audience is that part of the audience is bound to be people you see on a daily basis, people you have to talk to again. People in your life. Who may not recognize that this blog is just a journal of my thoughts - nothing more. These thoughts are not permanent, they waver, they morph, they go away - but the internet is permanent. Rather, its audience perceives it as permanent. Things you publish on the internet stay forever, right? No one realizes things that one does or writes in the past does not always carry into the future. That personality is not static. And this is the fucking audience I have to work with."~ Mayzhee

Each and every word. Exactly that.

1 month old. WHAT?! Dear Time, SLOW DOWN!

"I look down into your eyes and feel you tugging at my breast but it feels like you're tugging my heart"
~Unknown

He's the sweetest, most lovable, funny, awesomely cute little mushroom nugget monkey bunny baby ever. And we decided to keep him. For good. That is until he's 18 or coming home with 99 different piercings on his body. Whichever comes first.




P/s I'll TRY to post something tonight. I owe it to you guys who had been here for me through thick and thin, with your generous supports and advices. But no promises though! I said I will TRY.

If you’re a man, read up. If you’re a female and 30, this is for you. If you’re a female but not 30, shut up. Your time will come.

I received this email from a friend and it made me grin like a loon the entire time. It’s so accurately true that I know I must share it here in my blog and at the same time, I’m going to ask the Mister later whether he think it describe me to the dot or not [BETTER BE DOT!].

Ladies, embrace our 30s! 

Andy Rooney wrote this from CBS 60 Minutes.

He says: 

“As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why: 

A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, “What are you thinking?” She doesn’t care what you think. [It’s not that I don’t care but I respect the Mister’s personal space. He knows that if he wants to talk about his thoughts or problems, I will be there listening. But if he feels like keeping it to himself, it’s fine by me. I’m not going to wrestle him to death over matters like, “WHAT ARE YOU THINKING? SHARE WITH ME WILL YA?!”] 

If a woman over 30 doesn’t want to watch the game, she doesn’t sit around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it’s usually something more interesting. [The Mister would watch his favorite TV channel (which I don’t watch. Coz it’s boring. I’m sorry, Love. I love you!) while I sit somewhere reading or blogging or sleeping. Most of the time he’s the one checking up on me whether I’m still breathing or doing something far more interesting and join me.] 

A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a hoot what you might think about her or what she’s doing [Took me a while to be at this stage. Yes, I lapse once in a while still but most of the time I just flick if off like nasty little bug. YOU BITCH ABOUT ME, BITCH? BITCH THIS! (FLICK BITCH’S FACE FEROCIOUSLY)] 

Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won’t hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it. [I can always get away anything because I’m always right. Oooh I am SO going to get one nasty FLICK by admitting this out loud] 

Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it’s like to be unappreciated. [Correction: We praise what we see deserve to be praised. If you come up to us telling us that you successfully shove 30 pieces of cigarrete butts up your nose, GROW UP] 

A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn’t trust the guy with other women. Women over 30 couldn’t care less if you’re attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won’t betray her. [Why bother? We know we have it better here (shake sexy perky well-toned ass)] 

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 30. They always know. [True that. I can always tell when the Mister is up to no good –like snacking on fast food when he knows junk food has been scratch off from his very existence the minute he enter this marriage] 

A woman over 30 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women. [No comment (slowly hide all red lipstick from plain sight)] 

Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart. Older women are forthright and honest. They’ll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one! You don’t ever have to wonder where you stand with her. [Honesty is the best policy. By the way, here’s a tic-tac. Get the hint] 

Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it’s not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress. 

Ladies, I apologise. 

For all those men who say, “Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free”. Here’s an update for you. Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage, why? Because women realize it’s not worth buying an entire pig, just to get a little sausage!” 

Share it with your other female friends who are 30 and above and get the best giggle out of it! 

FAB FRIDAY!

Let’s go somewhere quiet and color it monochrome so the world seems less complicated ~Me

Ok. I’m typing this at 7am on a Friday morning and the first thought in my head was, “Woman, you need to get your shit together!” 

You see, this whole week I’ve been on leave to supposedly rest so that next week/year, I’ll be able to function professionally at work without turning into a garden slug that bark due to no rest and such. But all I did this whole week was running errands, chores, chores and chores and shit, that reminds me, I haven’t done another batch of laundry for the baby’s blankets and towels… also I haven’t done his hospital bag. Also I’m way, way due with few blog posts [hint: a reader came to visit me all the way from KL] Suffice to say, I didn’t get much needed rest. 

Then I looked at the calendar and realized, HOLY HAIRY MONKEY NUTS it’s already FRIDAY! SERIOUS SHIT WHERE DID THE TIME GO? 

So yes, I really need to get my shit together and maybe, MAYBE… get some well-deserved rest that I’ve been drooling over. 

It’s Friday and weekend is just around the corner. Time to get those wary feet up and smile; leave the old behind and embrace the new coz 2012 is near! 

Have a Fabulous Friday, peeps! 

To My Single Friends...

Your Spouse is a Reflection of Yourself.

Actually my friend quoted it like this;


 

“Kita tok reflection husband/wife kita. Mun kita bait, kita dapat laki/bini nak bait. Mun kita jaik, dapat lah nak jaik”

I just change it a bit in English just to make it sound more... "quotelike"

In Bahasa Malaysia (WHOA CHECK IT OUT I’M GOING TO TRANSLATE SARAWAK TO BM SO DON’T DRINK HOT TEA WHILE YOU READ IT IN CASE IT WILL SHOOT OUT OF YOUR NOSE);


 

“Kite ni… reflection husband/wife kite. Kalau kite baik, kite akan dapat husband/wife baik. Kalau kite jahat.. dapat laaa yg jahat”

Okay I cheated. I asked Nurul to translate it for me [insert immense guffaw]

What do you think of the quote? Make sense?

A person's belief system.

Who you are right now is the sum total of your most closely held beliefs. Your beliefs determine how you perceive your life experiences.

One person may face a difficult situation and becomes depressed because she believes that she doesn’t have a choice about that situation. On the other hand, another person may face the same situation but is able to handle it resourcefully because she believes that she is always in control, no matter what happens.

Same situation but different outcome. Why is that so?

The answer lies in the person’s belief system.



By Luke Bong

Haunted.

"Oh, for Thor's sake..." said Hiccup. "I thought that was just a story..."


"Stories come from somewhere," said the witch. "The past haunts the present in more ways than we realise"


~Cressida Cowell (How to Break a Dragon's Heart)





***My mind is pretty messed up right now. I have no idea where to go or what to do. I just need to get up and push through the darkness and work past all my memories that are haunting me again***



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One Minute Motivation

No problem if you have problems. This is easy to say until you are in the midst of a really big one. But the only people I am aware of who don’t have troubles are gathered in little neighborhoods. Most communities have at least one. We call them cemeteries. If you’re breathing, you have difficulties. It’s the way of life. And believe it or not, most of your problems may actually be good for you!

Let me explain. Maybe you have seen the Great Barrier Reef, stretching some 1,800 miles from New Guinea to Australia. Tour guides regularly take visitors to view the reef. On one tour, the guide was asked an interesting question. I notice that the lagoon side of the reef looks pale and lifeless, while the ocean side is vibrant and colorful,” a traveler observed. “Why is this?” The guide gave an interesting answer: “The coral around the lagoon side is in still water, with no challenge for its survival. It dies early. The coral on the ocean side is constantly being tested by wind, waves, storms — surges of power. It has to fight for survival every day of its life. As it is challenged and tested it changes and adapts. It grows healthy. It grows strong. And it reproduces.” Then he added this telling note: “That’s the way it is with every living organism.”

That is how it is with people! Challenged and tested, we come alive! Like coral pounded by the sea, we grow! Physical demands can cause us to grow stronger. Mental and emotional stress can produce tough-mindedness and resiliency. Spiritual testing can produce strength of character and faithfulness. So, you have problems – no problem! Just tell yourself, “There I grow again!”

An excerpt from Luke Bong's motivational email and photo from Tumblr

Be Grateful.

Tyson said, "Young Cyclopes grow up alone on the streets, learn to make things out of scraps. Learn to survive"


"But that's so cruel!"

He shook his head earnestly. "Makes us appreciate blessings, not to be greedy and mean and fat like Polyphemus"





~Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monster

I promise myself to be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.

 

It is not my intention to inflict jealousy. I thought you would be as happy as I would be if the situation is reverse.

I keep forgetting every human being is different.

 

The irony.

 

Funny thing is when fame finally came, it is when you want more privacy, see the irony? ~Tumblr

Here comes weekend, y'all! Wheeeeeeeeeee!

 

Isn't it pretty to think so?

 

“I think it was mostly truth I was after. I know now that truth is a troubling thing. You can’t snort your way to it. You can’t drink your way to it. You can’t fuck your way to it. You can’t cheat your way to it. You can’t love your way to it. You can only let it envelop you and try to make sense of it all.”

— Nick Miller (Isn't it pretty to think so?)

Express gratitude wherever, however, whenever and to whoever you can, so says the quote

“Good Morning! Is that for me? Why, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! That is so SWEET of you! What did I do to deserve such thoughtful surprise? You just made me the happiest woman today! Aren’t you the most wonderful person ever? THANK YOU! THANK YOU VERY, VERY MUCH!” I cried

The tea lady just gave me this look:

(-_____________-)’’

I don’t blame her. She makes me tea every day at work and suddenly today, I literally made her jump out of her skin when I exclaimed my excessive gratitude.

I must learn to control my Monday morning enthusiasm.

Day 21 ~A picture of something you wish you could forget

Out of the huts of history's shame 

I rise 

Up from a past that's rooted in pain 

I rise 

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide, 

Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear 

I rise 

Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear 

I rise 

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave, 

I am the dream and the hope of the slave. 

I rise 

I rise 

I rise. 

~ Maya Angelou

This is to remind myself why I should never stoop to your level thank you very much

"The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself"
~ Friedrich Nietzsche

My Gibberish is My Gobbledygook

As the darkness of night time swallowing my sight, I call forth the Sandman. O, Sandman, sprinkle those magic dust in my eyes so I can shut it all out and forget my troubles and worries. I beseech to be overcome by heavy dose of calmness. To be able to dream a dreamless dream, to be swallowed by the emptiness within.

A bliss. Really.

Dear February, Bring Me More Good News

People who ask confidently get more than those who are hesitant and uncertain.
When you've figured out what you want to ask for, do it with certainty, boldness and confidence
~Jack Canfield

Mirror.

The good you find in others, is in you too
The fault you find in others, are your faults as well.
After all, to recognize something you must know it.
The possibilities you see in others, are possible for you as well.
The beauty you see around you, is your beauty.
The world around you is a reflection,
a mirror showing you the person you are.
To change your world, you must change yourself.
To blame and complain will only make matters worse.
Whatever you care about, is your responsibility.
See the best in others, and you will be your best.
Give to others, and you give to yourself.
Appreciate beauty, and will be beautiful.
Admire creativity, and you will be creative.
Love, and you will be loved.
Seek to understand, and you will be understood.
Listen, and your voice will be heard.
Teach, and you will learn.

~Unknown