Oy I am so rusty in this...

Thank you for all the comments left in this blog, emails, DM in Twitter, and messages in Facebook.

Thank you for the support, the scolding and the telling me off for being such a pussy, the genuine regrets, the congratulations and the word of encouragement.

Honestly, I didn't know I have THAT many readers. I didn't know my decision (whom some called SELFISH and COWARDICE) actually rattle (or some used the word “disturbing”) A LOT of people.

I haven't reply not one of your emails, DMs, comments and messages.

Why? Because I don't know what to say. Indeed I am touched. Indeed some words were hurtful and made me angry. Indeed some were encouraging and made me rethink of my decision.

I consulted the Mister. Again.

I seek my friends advice. For the first time.

I asked some 'taiko' bloggers opinions. With my face all red, ashamed and embarrassed I DARE to ask these famous people about my puny, tiny blog.

I can say 90% said, WHY BOTHER WHAT PEOPLE SAY? BLOGGING IS YOUR PASSION AND YOU LET SOME CRAZY BITCH OUT THERE TAKE AWAY YOUR PASSION? THAT'S STUPID!

Okay, my husband didn't say that. Others did.

And there is this nice lady blogger whom I have been following for ages emailed me and said, “I received tons of shits thrown at me. But I continue on. Blogging is my source of income. It is also my pride and joy. I am not going to let haters take it away from me”

What a reality check. A slap in the face. An awakening.

Truthfully, I miss blogging. I don't know why. I can't explain why I love blogging. Is it because for my own satisfaction seeing my words/photos publish online? Is it because of the knowledge that people are coming here and become a regular, liking and addicted with what I put in my blog? Is it because I am famewhore? Maybe it is all that. Maybe not. I don't know. I just know there's a giant pull that makes me love blogging more than Facebooking or Twittering every hour of the day.

Am I back?

Maybe.

Give me time.

Let me adjust my mentality by pushing those haters/gossipers words out of my mind. And maybe in time, I'll be tougher. For me, for my blog and for my little family.

Thank you. I appreciate each and every one of you.